So Luteal Right Now

The Blahs have struck, and struck hard.

I don't want to do a single damn thing.

And I especially don't want to create content or blog or workout or meal prep anything.

I want to veg and do nothing except maybe whine about it all and eat some very specific snacks.

It's a mood.

Yesterday I was hating on myself so hard. I couldn't look at my body in the mirror without feeling deeply unsatisfied. I couldn't get my hair right. I couldn't find pants that sat on my hips properly. My shirts were wildly uncomfortable and they all looked wrong.

Oh, well hello there hormone drop, I see you're doing things right on track this month. But holy hell, whats with the self loathing?!

After deleting 74 drafts of various videos I had been filming, I suddenly realized that I was feeling so much Imposter Syndrome, so much negativity about my self image, because I'm literally bloated and my hormones are crashing as my uterus is about to self-destruct.

Conclusion: I need to organize a wad of filming and photographing content specifically around my late Follicular to Ovulatory phases. That's when I'm the most sure of myself, the most confident in my abilities and my appearance. Because then I won't also be tearing myself down for every minor thing.

As far as activity goes today, I've got a good 40 minute yoga and mobility planned out for myself so I can still do a little work, but not hard and bulky work. I really don't feel like I have the energy for that.